goodbye
hey!! it feels REALLY really weird actually typing on the blogger post site after about two years lol
i just decided to come on here and post one last time for sort of.. closure? i guess?
that probably doesn't make sense, since it's not like there was anything to really close off, but after rediscovering this blog, i felt like it was needed.
this blog was my outlet for everything. i dumped my feelings on here because i didn't have people i could talk to. i talked about my lame interests because i didn't have friends who wouldn't make fun of me for the things i liked back then. i continuously told anybody who read anything i posted to check on their friends and take care of their own health and so on just because i never had anyone to do that for me. this blog was oddly... my safe space. i guess it felt even more safe and secure because, even back then, nobody really used blogger, so i felt like i was far away enough from the world to the point where i could say anything and nobody could find me. it was nice at the time, i guess.
i know that i stopped posting on here because it wasn't interesting to me anymore and i decided to be very private about my struggles and thoughts from then on. this kind of thing feels safe for a while, then it starts to get views and all and you don't feel as secluded and... left alone anymore. my personality has honestly drastically changed from when i used to be active on here and even pretty much all of my interests have flipped. i'm not the same "minty moo" i used to be, and that's really a great thing, because WTF KIND OF NAME ISMINTY MOO ?! ? SERIOSULY WHO LET ME NSME MYSELF THST BRO WHST kIDND OF DIsRESPETC IS ThaT????,..,?>
but yeah basically just wanted to come on here and say goodbye i guess. one final look at all of my posts... which is basically a very short ride through some of my middle school experiences. it's kind of wild to see how much you change as person in just a few years. even my values and all have really changed and i view things reaaally differently compared to then.
this really was a nice space for me when i was growing and changing, though, and i thank blogger for giving me this platform to let my thoughts out on. i think it really helped me get through the times when i genuinely had no friends and i felt alone. now, thankfully, i have lots of good friends whom i love dearly! hopefully none of you somehow find this blog and know it's me because that will be way past embarrassing lol,,
i can say that i really did go through a lot of, i guess, "rough patches" and difficult times to get to the point that i'm at today. it was near the downfall of this blog that i fell into a deep depression and i really wasn't sure if i was ever going to escape it. somehow, i got out, and even though i still feel lost and deal with my fair share of violently intrusive thoughts, i definitely feel better about myself. i'm usually pretty quiet about everything about me unless it's someone i really love and trust, which is honestly better for me lol. even though christopher bang himself said that being weird is cool, for me, my weirdness only earns me slightly insulting comments from weird straight guys who don't know the glory of being chill. it's just better for me to be quiet unless i know a specific person won't kill me for my interests or anything like that lolol. i've always had really bad luck with friendships and relationships in general, so i really hope this crew lasts because they're truthfully and honestly the best.
i love all of my friends so incredibly much, and i'd do anything for them because i know they'd do the same. i have really great and amazing inspirations and motivations in my life now, mainly including skz! i've got things and people that make me really really happy, like my little rat cat mingming and the vast variety of frogs that live around my house. not to mention the lovely people i have in my life (esp j, the absolute rattiest of the rats who i KNOW will definitely find this blog one day because you're a little rat worm stalker, aren't you? huh? i'm right and i KNOW I'M RIGHT).
i'm not really going to miss this place because there's not much for me to miss anymore, but like i said earlier, i'm definitely glad i had this place to vent when i needed it. remember to always pray to lord jjonak and... for the last time, my cheesy little dumb outro:
have a nice day!
xx lay
i just decided to come on here and post one last time for sort of.. closure? i guess?
that probably doesn't make sense, since it's not like there was anything to really close off, but after rediscovering this blog, i felt like it was needed.
this blog was my outlet for everything. i dumped my feelings on here because i didn't have people i could talk to. i talked about my lame interests because i didn't have friends who wouldn't make fun of me for the things i liked back then. i continuously told anybody who read anything i posted to check on their friends and take care of their own health and so on just because i never had anyone to do that for me. this blog was oddly... my safe space. i guess it felt even more safe and secure because, even back then, nobody really used blogger, so i felt like i was far away enough from the world to the point where i could say anything and nobody could find me. it was nice at the time, i guess.
i know that i stopped posting on here because it wasn't interesting to me anymore and i decided to be very private about my struggles and thoughts from then on. this kind of thing feels safe for a while, then it starts to get views and all and you don't feel as secluded and... left alone anymore. my personality has honestly drastically changed from when i used to be active on here and even pretty much all of my interests have flipped. i'm not the same "minty moo" i used to be, and that's really a great thing, because WTF KIND OF NAME ISMINTY MOO ?! ? SERIOSULY WHO LET ME NSME MYSELF THST BRO WHST kIDND OF DIsRESPETC IS ThaT????,..,?>
but yeah basically just wanted to come on here and say goodbye i guess. one final look at all of my posts... which is basically a very short ride through some of my middle school experiences. it's kind of wild to see how much you change as person in just a few years. even my values and all have really changed and i view things reaaally differently compared to then.
this really was a nice space for me when i was growing and changing, though, and i thank blogger for giving me this platform to let my thoughts out on. i think it really helped me get through the times when i genuinely had no friends and i felt alone. now, thankfully, i have lots of good friends whom i love dearly! hopefully none of you somehow find this blog and know it's me because that will be way past embarrassing lol,,
i can say that i really did go through a lot of, i guess, "rough patches" and difficult times to get to the point that i'm at today. it was near the downfall of this blog that i fell into a deep depression and i really wasn't sure if i was ever going to escape it. somehow, i got out, and even though i still feel lost and deal with my fair share of violently intrusive thoughts, i definitely feel better about myself. i'm usually pretty quiet about everything about me unless it's someone i really love and trust, which is honestly better for me lol. even though christopher bang himself said that being weird is cool, for me, my weirdness only earns me slightly insulting comments from weird straight guys who don't know the glory of being chill. it's just better for me to be quiet unless i know a specific person won't kill me for my interests or anything like that lolol. i've always had really bad luck with friendships and relationships in general, so i really hope this crew lasts because they're truthfully and honestly the best.
i love all of my friends so incredibly much, and i'd do anything for them because i know they'd do the same. i have really great and amazing inspirations and motivations in my life now, mainly including skz! i've got things and people that make me really really happy, like my little rat cat mingming and the vast variety of frogs that live around my house. not to mention the lovely people i have in my life (esp j, the absolute rattiest of the rats who i KNOW will definitely find this blog one day because you're a little rat worm stalker, aren't you? huh? i'm right and i KNOW I'M RIGHT).
i'm not really going to miss this place because there's not much for me to miss anymore, but like i said earlier, i'm definitely glad i had this place to vent when i needed it. remember to always pray to lord jjonak and... for the last time, my cheesy little dumb outro:
have a nice day!
xx lay
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